I just wish you can read this!...so you'll know what's goin on inside me....I can't count how many times I tried to forget everything about you... but still, you're one of the reasons why I can put SMILE on my face...Everytime I see you, I can't help but think that, it will be the moment....

All I wish is for us right now is to be able to talk like friends...

posted by Abby at 8:23 PM

Do questions like these percolate in the back of your mind: "What will I do if I lose my job?" "What can I look forward this week? "Can I afford to buy what I want?"
We desire security. We enjoy recreation. We want to possess beauty. God designed us to experience all this. It's part of our innate desire to live life to the fullest.
Unless we're careful, however, the drives meant to push us toward God can lead us into pursuing the world's counterfeits. The world tells us to put our reliance in a steady paycheck or plan the perfect event or buy another item we don't need. Eventhough we know these can't satisfy us, we fall for that line again and again.
Only God can live up to all our hopes. The more we enjoy Him, the freer we are to enjoy life's other pleasures for what they are-extras, not necessary for our satisfaction. Then, when the job falls through, the plans get cancelled, or the new gismo becomes outdated, we can still have joy. We don't need perfection from anything else when the Perfect One is satisfying us.
The next time you grasp for security, focus on God's majesty and awesomeness. When you long for good or goods, remind yourself of your wonderful Lord. And when you yearn for beauty, fix you eyes on the One who is beautiful beyond description. Stand in awe of Him. Let Him meet you deepest desires.....

an excerpt from our devotion before we started pratice earlier this evening

posted by Abby at 10:14 PM

My mom keeps on having this dream about me getting married to a Caucasian guy... and it is starting to freak me out a little bit...Deng! what is up with that?????


posted by Abby at 9:20 PM

from my inbox...I answered half of the question which means I am halfly in love! LOL


Message: para sa mga taong nanliligaw, nagbabalak
manligaw, nililigawan, naliligaw, nag-iintay maligawan at nagbabalak
lumagay sa magulo..........

ang love ay hindi minamadali...
hindi pinipilit..
at lalong hindi kina-career...aray ko

unang-una...

PAANO MO BA NASABING MAHAL MO NA SIYA...

dahil ba natutuwa ka sa kanya...
o kaya naman naaaliw ka...
naswee-sweetan ka ba ng sobra sa kanya...
kinikilig ka ba pag nakikita mo siya...
at nahi-high kapag naririnig mo na ang boses
niya...

eh teka muna...
baka naman infatuated ka lang....
o kaya naman kagaya nga ng sagot mo...
BAKA naaaliw ka lang...
dahil kakaiba siya...
may spark na hindi mo maintindihan...

tsk!!!...
ang saklap nyan!...

pangalawa...

GAANO MO NA BA SIYA KAKILALA...

madali ba siyang mapikon...
pano ba siya mabadtrip...
madali bang mahalata na may topak siya...
ano bang suot niya pag nasa bahay siya...
shorts ba o pantalon...
nakasando ba siya o naka-t-shirt lang...
matagal ba siyang maligo....
kumakain ba siya ng vegetables...
tamad ba siya...
mas gusto ba niyang manood ng tv kaysa magbasa
ng
libro...
nagpe-play station ba siya...
tatlo ba ang pamangkin niyang lalaki...
makukulit ba yung mga kamag-anak niya...
green ba ang kulay ng gate ng bahay nila...
sa village ba siya nakatira...
may sakayan ba ng jeep na malapit sa kanila...
nagsisimba ba siya linggo-linggo...
kasama ba yung pamilya niya...
at nagdadasal ba siya bago matulog...

in short...
alam mo na nga ba...
ang mga bagay-bagay...
ang mga simpleng bagay tungkol sa kanya...
na nagdedetermine ng sarili niya...
as in kung sino ba talaga SIYA...

pangatlo...

KAYA MO BA SIYANG TANGGAPIN...

as in TANGGAPIN ng buong-buo...

sa lahat ng trip niya sa buhay...
sa lahat ng katopakan niya...
sa lahat ng pag-iinarte at pag-dadrama niya...
sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa, ginawa, at
gagawin
pa lang niya...
sa lahat ng naiisip niya...
sa lahat ng sasabihin niya...
sa kilos niya...
sa pananamit pa pala niya...
sa pagsasalita...
sa pananaw niya sa buhay...
sa pagtrato niya sa tao...
sa lifestyle niya...
sa uri ng pamilyang meron siya...
sa uri ng kaibigang kasa-kasama niya...
sa style niya pagdating sa love...
sa kasweetan niyang natural...
sa paglalambing niya...
sa tawa niyang pagkalakas-lakas...
sa manners niya...
sa bisyo niya kung meron man...
sa mga pang-aasar niya sayo...
sa style niya pagdating sa pagsolve ng
problema...
sa problemang maaari ka ring masama...

pang-apat...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING TOTOO...

kaya mo bang makita yung sarili mo...
na kasama pa rin siya ha...
sa isang sitwasyong pag naisip mo eh...
mapapaiyak ka na lang sa sakit...
nang dahil din sa kanya...

kaya mo bang magmukhang tanga...
as in umiyak ng dahil sa kababawan...
ibuhos ang mga nararamdaman mo...
kahit na puro kababawan nga lang naman...
as in kahit sa harapan niya...

kaya mo bang maging barubal pag kasama mo siya...
yung tipo bang wala ka ng pakielam...
mawala man ang manners mo...
na wala ka naman talaga...

in short...

KAYA MO BANG MAGING IKAW KAPAG KASAMA MO NA
SIYA...

yung tipong hindi ka nahihiyang ipakita kung
sino
ka
talaga...

dahil alam mong...

HINDI MO LANG SIYA TANGGAP...

TANGGAP KA RIN NIYA...

BUONG-BUO RIN...

MGA TAO!!!...
tama na kasi ang trip...
tama na ang pagmamadali...
oo masarap ngang mainvolve sa isang tao...
pero diba mas masarap yun...

LALO NA KUNG ALAM MONG TOTOO YUNG
NARARAMDAMAN MO...



posted by Abby at 9:43 PM

1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't
crying, it means she's crying in her heart.

2. When she ignores you after you've done
something wrong, it's best to give her some time
to cool down before touching her heart with an
apology.

3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the
guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for
her to 'get over him' after the relationship's
over.)

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on
her mind every minute of the day, even though
she flirts with other guys.

5.When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep
into her eyes, she will melt.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually
is not sure how to react to them.

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very
often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes
her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go
easy on the smiles and stare 'okie?

8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break
it to her gently.

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you
reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you
still treat her as a friend, talk to her.

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel.
Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of
expressing themselves (which explains why most
girls like writing journals).

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in any
way.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the
first time, the girl may act uninterested during
the call. But as soon as the phone is back on
the hook, she will whoop with joy and
immediately start telephoning her friends to
spread the news.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with
her first. Let her get to know you.

16. If a girl says she can't go out with you
because she has to study, leave.

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call
from you, stay.

18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask
her.

19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great
reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy,
she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a
girl, read romance stories .

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would
first look at the girl next to her crush before
actually looking at herself.

23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her
memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her
heart.

24. Girls love having fun!

25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.

26. A girl's best friends usually know best what
she is feeling and going through.

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to
them just to get close to their 'prettier'
friend.

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to
a girl, in that order.

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about
brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love
and care for them.

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

31. A girL wouLd Like a guy who can make her
Laugh.

from my inbox

posted by Abby at 9:06 PM

This is a torture???? is it???? or am I a masochist??? LOL...

How am I gonna handle this????



posted by Abby at 8:04 PM

HERE I AM

Here I am playing with those memories again
And just when I thought time had set me free
Those thoughts of you keep taunting me

Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew
Though each and every part of me has tried
Only you can fill that space inside

So there's no sense pretending
My heart it's not mending

CHORUS
Just when I thought I was over you
And just when I thought I could stand on my own
Oh baby those memories come crashing through
And I just can't go on without you

On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone
I've done everything I can to ease the pain
But only you can stop the rain

I just can't live without you
I miss everything about you

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yeah.. I thought it was over... but I guess it's not :)




posted by Abby at 9:22 AM

Is it possible that after long years of waiting...the feeling suddenly dies??? Maybe it reached some sort of fatigue or restlessness that you just can't bare it no more....it's hopeless... and no matter how hard you try to keep it up...you just can't...
It's been 8 years that I've been keeping up with this darn feeling...I am so tired... maybe I have to let it go...

Just a thought that bothered me earlier today...

posted by Abby at 9:37 PM

I am so enjoying reading the book When God writes your lovestory...I was reading it earlier today while I was doing my gym routine, and I can't help but giggle while reading a part of it....maybe some of the people who saw me might think I am nuts...who cares! I learn so much from the book ! I mean A LOT!
I will surely recommend it to my friends.....

Sometimes, it's hard to love someone when all you can see is their flaws...but once you learn to love those flaws...then it totally makes sense that you really are indeed in love with that person....does that make sense? :)



posted by Abby at 10:46 PM

This day is very hilarious.... I found someone in a situation that reminded me of one of my embarrassing moments....I'm not gonna post any further details...This is enough to make my day! :)

--------------------
I feel that I am starting to become a control freak... Am I?



posted by Abby at 4:36 PM

The song "BURN" keeps on playing in my mind... the cause of listening to that song very early in the morning... oh yeah...that song was my wake up call...

I read this really cute story and I want to post it here...but I left the book in my car and I am so lazy to get it...I will still post it sometime soon...

I was so sick these past days...A major headache and nausea kicked in.... I don't know what the heck is wrong with me but this time... I really can't bare the pain...Before, I can stand a headache without taking any pain reliever but mahn! this time, I have to... I felt like the world was spinning and turning.... and banging my head against the wall seems to be the only solution to get this over with.... but hey! I'm still here! alive and kicking!!!

Wednesday night in our lab, guess what? I was able to know my blood type... I did this blood typing three times already in my past laboratories but this time, I am positive with the results....

Sometimes, I can't help to feel empty... I miss so many stuff I used to do when I was a teenager.... Growing up is hard... As I go and move on with my life, I noticed that I am experiencing some sort of crisis....something like... in this darn age of mine, I am expected to have a career already.... I have to admit it... but I am getting older! All I think about is the future... I need to do this, I need to do that before I reach this certain age...

Right now, I don't know how to maneuver some stuff that's going on with my life...I only hope that I can have the knowledge/wisdom soon.......


posted by Abby at 11:49 AM